Have a baby

But i’m ok with that. :)
I’ve met an amazing man and i want to just enjoy him and us and let things grow…..a baby will come later…. :) When the time is right.

I am the youngest of 3 and the only one without children and not married. My parents have no problem with this, as long as I am happy. Some other people though have some questions though….for example my neices (aged 5 & 9) Carly the youngest use to ask me quite often
“Auntie, when are you going to have a baby?”
After a while of this my sister must of had a discussion with her and told her that in order for me to have a baby i would have to get married. So the question ended for alittle while. But then the next one started….
“Auntie, when are you going to get married?”
More and more of this….another discussion that i would have to have a boyfriend before i could get married. And so now begins the question,
“Auntie, when are you going to get a boyfriend?”
And to this I ask, “Why should i get a boyfriend?”
And she would reply “So you can get married.”
I would then ask, “And why should I get married?”
“So you could have a baby.”
Me, “Why do you want me to have a baby Carly?”
And she says “So I could play with it.”
huh!
kids can be quite silly. Its just funny to me that the grown-ups are fine with my life if, like I said above, I am happy. Where as the little ones (i thought) were getting worried, but now it just looks like they are searching for more playmates! :)

I’m at work and it just so happens to be my double shift day (i do a 16 hour shift once a week so I can have an extra day off during the week) and I’m sitting at my desk and a woman i work with asks if i’m working 8 or 12 hours today.
I respond “No. It’s my 16 today.”
She then says “Ouch. You must not have any kids.”
And of course i say no. So then she proceeds to ask me how old i am in which i reply “29 and i’ll be 30 next month.”
And she assumes that since i’m ‘SO OLD’ without kids that i don’t intend on having any. And she goes on to say that she doesn’t blame me for not wanting them.
But wait wait wait i think. “I do want kids. It just hasn’t happened yet.”
Her eyes got all big and she was shocked.
I went on to tell her that i do not believe 30 to be Old and that plenty of women have children way into their 30’s and some even 40’s (which i don’t agree on)
But it kind of hurt…..why can’t i have a baby at 30? or even 31 or 32 or 33 and so on??

Uh-oh. Another new baby in the family! My oldest friend, one of my best friends, my cousin…had her baby on Sunday. Another little bundle of joy…to either cure my baby craves or make them stronger!
Although she lives 2 hours away…:( which makes me sad, i won’t be able to see her as much as I like (until I talk them into moving back home!)
Lots of baby loving in the days ahead!

One of my best friends just had a baby on November 18th. He is gorgeous! I haven’t really gotten to spend much time with him because he just came home today and i’ve been working. But its been so long since there’s been a baby in my life…my youngest niece is 5 1/2 years old! I wonder if my thoughts and wants of having a baby will change….or will they become stronger….once i get to spend more time with him?????
curious.

i lost an aunt a few weeks back and she left her behind a daughter who she was extrememly close to and a small grandson (among other children & another grandchild) but i start thinking about my parents…they are not OLD but you never know what could happen…my aunt was only 52 and died in a car accident….but anyway….i think of how i want my parents to be here with me/for me and my children. My mom and i are VERY close and she is an amazing women, mother & grandmother to my sisters children…i want that too….and i know she does too….
just can’t help thinking about things like that….and how i want to be young when i have a baby…time is ticking….

At least not before i turn 30! I will be 30 in March and there is no bun in my oven…so now i must change this goal to “Have a Baby”....ho-hum…..but that’s ok.

I am the youngest of three and the only un-married child. My sister married and had her first child at 30, second child at 33. My brother also married at 30. He has yet to have children, but he did marry a younger gal, she is 26. So my sister is done (the mr was snipped) and my sister-in-law is still young. I, on the other hand, will be 30 next march and am not married OR in a relationship of any kind. Will it happen for me? How? When?