be responsible

I wanna be responsible – have control over my life, my everyday activities, don’t have silly problems. I found myself not prepared for living on my own. How can I be independent if I even do not cope with cleaning my room and watering plants?
I have to think about what I’m doing, give it some common-sense, and stop waisting time. Now I start my everyday japanese lesson with an internet course. but what’ll be next? I have to switch to another “43things” thing or tidy my room, or sth, but not lay down with a detective story in one hand and a bottle of ice-tea in another. no no no.
and so on.