get married

We are going to look at rings. I can’t wait to tell everyone I am engaged, but part of me just wants to skip being engaged and just get married, then have a wedding later. I guess that’s kind of back wards.

Do I really want to do this? Sometimes I just wonder if I should stay single forever. I’m never totally satisfied with my signifigant other. Maybe I excpect too much. I want it all. A super hot stylish man who is a great lover who is athletic, smart, makes a decent salry, has an interesting job, is culturally aware, loves to travel, snowboards, travels, surfs…picks up new things easily and who has a GREAT ATTITUDE about LIFE! and who is really attracted to and into me! And who has time for me…Am I asking too much? Oh, and who wants kids!!!

Seems so far fetched for me sometimes.

All of these people are starting to get married and have kids. Not me, instead I am dealing with death. I guess many others will unfortunately be dealing with that too in the distant future. Maybe one day I will feel 100% again. Maybe one day I too will get married, but for now I am ok with not being married. Just don’t want to get too old and regret anything.

i just really want a life partner. Two is stronger than one. I’m really over breaking up with people who I decided wouldn’t work out well as a life partner. I need to follow my initial gut instinct more often. Really first impressions are usually so right on, but I have always given people the benefit of the doubt. I need to think more like I thought before I ever started dating, and I would only be with mr. perfect. Although as an adult I realize that doesn’t really exist.

I used to always say I never wanted to get married, but now I am changing. Most of my close friends have been married for between 3 years and 6 months. I guess I’m kind of glad to see how it is working out for them. Some of them are very happy, and some unfortunately are not very happy. I think that may just be those individuals’ personalities.
I want to have a life-partner, a man by my side who is there through thick and thin, sickness, and health, and who together we are stronger than we would be independantly.
People tell me I am too independant for marriage. Is it really possible to be too independant for marriage?

I don’t want to become another divorce statistic, and after being a wedding photographer, and hearing what some brides and grooms say just before their weddings I don’t understand why some people even get married. For me it really is about being together through thick, and thin, and working hard to be strong, good, and loving even when sometims you feel like you are at the end of the rope. Good communication…