...to have been going through a rather introverted stage lately. Some of it has been related to feeling isolated, perhaps, because of my hip problems (and other previous health issues that have already been dealt with other the passed few months), but a greater part of it is due to something else that I just haven’t quite been able to put my finger on. Some of the issues may be about my father, he’s been going through a serious bout of depression suicidal thoughts, and delusional thinking lately… nothing clinical but nonetheless destructive even though it’s of his own making. Some progress is being made (sometimes painfully so) in some other areas of my life that I choose not to talk about, at least with most people, on this site, as well. I’m not depressed or particularly stressed out… my finances have improved drastically since being hit with medical bills a few months ago, my blog is growing, I’m making headway towards moving passed personal roadblocks and complications in my life. I’ve actually been feeling a great deal of peace for quite a while lately. I have isolated moments, of course, but the greater depth of my experience has been quite calm for a while now… and yet I just seem to be drawn inward.
I do want to keep in better touch with people, though. I have quite a few emails, text messages, phone calls, blog comments, 43Things comments, 43Things entries, 43Things messages (PM’s), Fitocracy posts, Twitter comments/retweets/follows, Facebook messages, postcards, and letters that I need/want to respond to… all of these ranging from just a few days ago to prior to Christmas. One person even gave me a few ebooks and I’ve hardly talked to them about them. I don’t even really know where to start… is there a certain point where a communication is so old that it’s pointless to respond to it? Does it lose it’s relevancy, is a bridge already burned? Do I try some awkward comment apologizing for how long it’s taken to reply or update something when the only excuse I have is that I have just been feeling introverted? I really don’t have the answers to these questions, and there are probably as many answers as there are people. But I do want stay in better touch with people. I’m not going to get caught up all in one day, or even in one week (probably), but I’d like to start making headway towards this.
Today, I’m going to start replying to comments that people have left me on my blog and here on 43Things. If I’ve offended you in anyway by not responding in a timely manner, I apologize. I honestly have meant no disrespect but cannot fully explain why I have been so laxidasical lately. After getting caught up on comments, I’ll move on to messages, emails, phone calls, etc… but this is a good place to start.