lose 15 pounds

Living in a guesthouse for the last 4 weeks wasn’t doing any good for this goal. Since I didn’t have a fridge or kitchen, I had to rely on fatty, packaged foods or go out for dinner and lunch. Both options are not good for losing weight. In a week I will finally move into my new place and then I can go back to being serious about this goal.

I went and joined a gym on Saturday. It’s not as nice as my last one, but good enough. Since I haven’t found an appartment yet, I basically set around in the evening doing nothing, going to bed really early, doing a bit of reading. So finally I have something to do. I might even start going before work as the gym opens at 5 am. I will see what works best for me. I am excited of going today after work.

A colleague’s just sent around a bunch of photos from an event we went to. I had actually dressed up, in a suit and a shirt I liked and thought looked good on me. Well, obviously I wasn’t as objective as the camera is. I look about 6 months pregnant in it. I definitely have to lose weight .. now!

I’ve lost 5 pounds over the last four months, which isn’t all that much, but already makes quite a difference and I am happy about it. Honestly, for me, it all comes down to cutting out candy. Simple as that.. a bit too simple almost, but hard nonetheless.

Cracked the 63 kg mark today. It has been quite some time since I saw that 62 there on my scale. Progress is slow, but it is progress. Following my cholesterole scare last Friday, I have been watching my diet closely. I can tell you, it is not good. Now’s the time to make it better, right?

Another pound disappeared over the week. I am finally making progress based on active choices regarding my eating and exercise. Yesterday, I made the choice to ditch the fast food I felt like having and instead bought healthy food, which I didn’t even eat in end because I wasn’t even hungry. I have also been working out over the weekend and it felt really good. Maybe I finally got it…

I am so silly. The scare I got when I randomly got on the scale on thursday (in my clothes, with shoes, after dinner) was completely unnecessary. I am still below 140. Although this is not progress, at least I am not going backwards.
Thinking about it, I know I looked exactly the same on thursay to the way I look now. Why can’t I trust my ideas, but instead get freaked out be the scale?

The stay at my parents did not help at all. I just found an old scale and was quite shocked. I usually weigh in in the morning, so I know not to take it to seriously, but still it’s a lot higher than I had hoped for. I am back to where I started, which is not that suprising given that my mom makes 3-4 meals a day and I don’t work / work out at all. So, a fresh start tomorrow.

at 140 and really annoyed about it. The wheather has become hot again and all this people around me stroll down the sidewalk in short skirts and spaghetti tops. I so wish that was me.

My nutriotion is completely messed up, not only with regard to calories, but also lacking anything that is good for me. I do know better.

Why can’t I do this properly? Yes, I am losing weight and it feels good, but at the same time I get into a weird eating pattern – weird food, weird times, not what would be healthy nutrition.