lose 10 kg

I think I should really reconsider this goal. I’ve been the nearly the same weight (+/- 1,5 kg) for the last ten years. I have never been really satisfied with the weight, which is normal by all standards, but does not qualify for being really slim. So, I am not really happy with it, but apparently I haven’t been unhappy enough to really make an effort either. Having this goal on my list as a permanent goal makes no sense at all. So I should really think about whether I want to make an effort or just accept the way I am and continue to keep my weight as it is. There is no point in supposedly trying without really trying.

I haven’t been focusing on this and apparently it is something I need to focus on for it to work. I obviously know what to do to lose weight and the things keeping me from it are usually fun things and my own laziness (to a certain agree also my distorted relation to food, but anyway). So I’ve started focusing on this a bit a more and – as expected- it works, though I could always do more.

I am making good progress in cutting out sweets and candy. I did have some chocolate cake on Sunday, but that’s ok. It’s not something I usually do. What I really want to free myself from are the snacks and sweets I buy because I feel tired, sad or bored. I haven’t bought any of these for almost a week which seems like nothing, but is huge for me.

I went to gym yesterday, first time in weeks. It was better than expected. I was suprised I could run for 45 min. The only problem now is that I want to have immediate results. Even though I obviously know that is not how it works, I so want them to keep me going. Instead I am a pound up, which has several reasons and nothing to do with going to the gym. I know….

Living in a guesthouse for the last 4 weeks wasn’t doing any good for this goal. Since I didn’t have a fridge or kitchen, I had to rely on fatty, packaged foods or go out for dinner and lunch. Both options are not good for losing weight. In a week I will finally move into my new place and then I can go back to being serious about this goal.

I went and joined a gym on Saturday. It’s not as nice as my last one, but good enough. Since I haven’t found an appartment yet, I basically set around in the evening doing nothing, going to bed really early, doing a bit of reading. So finally I have something to do. I might even start going before work as the gym opens at 5 am. I will see what works best for me. I am excited of going today after work.

A colleague’s just sent around a bunch of photos from an event we went to. I had actually dressed up, in a suit and a shirt I liked and thought looked good on me. Well, obviously I wasn’t as objective as the camera is. I look about 6 months pregnant in it. I definitely have to lose weight .. now!

I’ve lost 5 pounds over the last four months, which isn’t all that much, but already makes quite a difference and I am happy about it. Honestly, for me, it all comes down to cutting out candy. Simple as that.. a bit too simple almost, but hard nonetheless.

Cracked the 63 kg mark today. It has been quite some time since I saw that 62 there on my scale. Progress is slow, but it is progress. Following my cholesterole scare last Friday, I have been watching my diet closely. I can tell you, it is not good. Now’s the time to make it better, right?

Another pound disappeared over the week. I am finally making progress based on active choices regarding my eating and exercise. Yesterday, I made the choice to ditch the fast food I felt like having and instead bought healthy food, which I didn’t even eat in end because I wasn’t even hungry. I have also been working out over the weekend and it felt really good. Maybe I finally got it…