sleep better

I just realized that for the first time in weeks I don’t feel tired. Lately, I have been tired all the time, in the morning, during the day, at night and no amount of sleep or caffeine has helped. I noticed it, but did’t do something about it. I’d wake in the mornings already feeling exhausted, later then frustrated because I wouldn’t get anything done. The fact that it so cold outside (that also means inside due to no insulation and heating) hasn’t helped.

So, I had a little accident yesterday and hurt my ankle pretty badly. I can’t really walk and didn’t do much today. That obviously helped by itself, but more importantly I think, was that I didn’t have to do anything today. Nobody who wanted me go somewhere, do something, call someone…. just me.

It has been hectic lately. The move to the new house has created a new problem everyday, that needs some attention. And the house mate no 1 manages to make any small problem into a huge crisis. I knew that before, but now it is really getting to me. Maybe I just need to talk to here about. I need space, I need calm and I need to let things be.

This one is going badly. I haven’t slept the past couple of days and I can’t really pinpoint the reason yet. The heat isn’t helping, but it is more than that. I so need to sleep.

Even though I still don’t have a regular sleeping pattern and the nightmares obvisously didn’t disappear, I feel more rested than I have in years. Staying at my parents is like a time capsule. You get in, you stay there, back to being a child, nothing to do, nothing you can do. I only slept four hours today and I feel better than most days.

I know why the nightmares are there. I should be doing something about it. It must be wonderful to just go to sleep at night and wake up in the morning, ready to face the world.

The nightmares are back, yeah. So I lay awake for 2 hours and right now I am exhausted while I should be this motivated, energetic worker bee. And I am so not. They went away for a couple of months and now they are back. It is so frustrating…

I am not taking enough care to get enough and good sleep. I mostly fall asleep completely exhausted, sometimes still in my clothes and often with the lights on. I don’t think this contributes to a good nights sleep. At least right now I don’t have trouble falling asleep, which used to be my problem. I guess I have that taken care of.

with a minor anxiety attack that kept me awake most of the night. Adding to the lack of sleep, it also keeps me absolutely exhausted.

... if I wasn’t constantly tired and without energy. I know many of the reasons I can’t sleep are self-made, so maybe I can do something about it.