Believe in myself

Ok, so I believe I can get the grades I need to study whatever I want, I’ll just need to work harder, the problem is do I study the subject that I know I’ll definately love but the job prospects aren’t all that great, or do I pick the subject I’ve recently discovered I love, but a little less than the first…but there would probably be more job opportunities in this area? Should I go with the second and keep the first as a hobby or interest? Or go with the first and love it completely? The first is a little less academic and I don’t know if I should aim a bit higher, really push myself to excel at the second subject? I hate being so indecisive! It really doesn’t help that the guy I’m completely in love with wants to do the second subject. It’s kinda making me want to do it to get closer to him, although I know this shouldn’t be a factor in choosing my degree subject at all. I’m confused! Anyone have any ideas?

I need to believe that I can pass these exams and get into the course that I want…I think I finally know what I want…now it’s just a matter of getting it :) I also know I want HIM but it’s just not happening at the moment :( I won’t give up!

Something knocked my confidence last August and it’s only slowly coming back now.It’s harder than I ever thought. Today I believed in myself and it paid off, I could do what I wanted to do. I can do this…we all can!

Perhaps the most important goal of all! This is very important to me as I am starting college at the end of the month. I find I put myself down alot and this really makes me angry because there are so many confident people out there and I want to be one of them. This goal will take a long time for everybody.