be happy

i really think the weather has a big impact on my happiness… it has been grey and dark for so long, it makes me feel like a slow sad underground creature! but today is bright, sunny and clear (although bitingly cold)- ‘bracing’ my mum would say!it makes me cheer right up, like my head is clearer and i am ready for anything :)

i really don’t see this as a goal in itself. i don’t see my entire reason for existing as just being “happy.” i think life is more about a whole spectrum of experiences good and bad. life has sadness and fear and hope and so on, and why should i deny it? however, i want to be able to appreciate the happy moments without worrying, or planning for tomorrow, or asking myself what people think. i want to be happy to be alive. i think my other goals will help me get closer to this.

hopefully!