Weigh 120 and stay there forever

Being this heavy really does grieve me. I feel dumb and fat. Dumb that the weight has taken over and fat because my clothes are so tight. Thinking I weigh around the 140 mark. Way, way too big.
I’m not a vain person but I feel out of balance with this fat.
20 extra pounds to carry day in and out is alot of weight.
God help me please. Amen.

I need to weigh 120 and just stay there. I’m 5’7 and this extra weight needs to come off so I can enjoy living inside my body again. Also that my clothes feel and fit better and my attitude is better and I don’t feel like I’m moving about planet earth with extra cargo.
120 that is what I really need to weigh to feel good and fit.

That means I have 15 pounds to loose as I write this. It can be done and I will do this. It will be 5 pounds a month until it’s off and it has to be an everyday thing. I will once again weigh 120 and stay between 118-120 so I can feel good and sleep good. My bones and frame are built for a woman weighing 120, I’m not built to carry a lot of weight. I’m too heavy right now, pants feel snug, it needs to come off. Food is the problem, eating like crazy most days. Just so glad I’m not back to 140 and above. The weight gain has to stop now. Eat what I want just one meal a day is what really does it.