have a higher self esteem

Another vague entry. What I want is not to put myself down so much, or to always think that the reason someone did something is because they hate me. I don’t know if one can truely create a higher self-esteem, but I think for me, exercise, getting fresh air and sunshine, doing alot of my 43 things can definately help this. And also I think doing that dorky self-talk would help too. I have to do it to shut up the shit talk that automatically starts up.