Fall in love

for the past year i’ve been carrying around with me a heart full of love and sorrow,full of joy and happiness, but most of all, a heart full of pain. you see, truth be told i’m still hopelessly in love with my ex, i always have and i’m scared that i probably may always will. and it just really pains me to know that she’ll probably never feel the same way about me again. and even if she did, she’ll never show it. the only thing that i can hold on to now is our friendship, the only thing that still ties me to her. i just wish that this feeling would finally pass.

its confusing really.i wrote an entry about this girl a few months ago and how there could potentially have been love between us.turns out i was wrong.i went in to it with the most sincere of intentions,and i never meant to hurt her.but i just couldn’t pull through with it after realizing i’m still in love with my ex.i mean i’ve always known there was still something there.but i just never paid that much attention to it until a couple of weeks ago.i thought that after all this time i’d finally be over her.sigh*

i wrote an entry about this girl that i couldn’t get off my mind last week. Well her friend introduced me to her a few days ago,and she actually seems like a pretty nice person..even though we haven’t talked that much.. Hehe.. But i still feel good about it. I’m not saying that its a start of anything close to love or a relationship of some sort. I’m just saying that its a start of me finally getting better. I hope i’m not wrong about this. Wish me luck.:)

i’m still trying to get over my ex,and just a couple of days ago i was thinking of how miserable i was.there’s this really cute girl at school i see from time to time,she pops into my mind every now and then,but ever since this afternoon i haven’t been able to get her off my mind.i know its not love, but could this be a sign of things getting better for me??=)

i guess the first cut really is the deepest..how do you post a question by the way??