Fall in love

There’s this girl at my school that I’ve had a crush on for some time now. I don’t know anything about her except for her name and that she has a gorgeous smile. I hardly ever see her(our school is pretty big). I just wish that fate would finally try to look at things from my side. :)

for the past year i’ve been carrying around with me a heart full of love and sorrow,full of joy and happiness, but most of all, a heart full of pain. you see, truth be told i’m still hopelessly in love with my ex, i always have and i’m scared that i probably may always will. and it just really pains me to know that she’ll probably never feel the same way about me again. and even if she did, she’ll never show it. the only thing that i can hold on to now is our friendship, the only thing that still ties me to her. i just wish that this feeling would finally pass.

i wrote an entry about this girl that i couldn’t get off my mind last week. Well her friend introduced me to her a few days ago,and she actually seems like a pretty nice person..even though we haven’t talked that much.. Hehe.. But i still feel good about it. I’m not saying that its a start of anything close to love or a relationship of some sort. I’m just saying that its a start of me finally getting better. I hope i’m not wrong about this. Wish me luck.:)

i guess the first cut really is the deepest..how do you post a question by the way??