This has been an intersting experience. I recently read Ekhart Tolle’s book, “A New Earth”. It was really one of those books that changes how I see things. I always heard the phrase “observe your thoughts”, “don’t let your thoughts hijack your mind”. What does that even mean??! Well, after reading the book I can make that line and really observe my thoughts and take stock of what’s going on without completely losing my head.
I had been doing really well, but I had a week or two where I feel like my ego is trying to bring itself back into my brain – I panicked…I hate the feeling of my ego taking over – it’s fearful, full of anxiety, I make rules, i’m inflexible, I cry, I whine…it’s uuuugly. Anyway, it’s been kind of a fun challenge to try to remain calm and mainatin that separation between my thoughts, reality, actions and reactions. Not perfect, but still a good learning experience.