stop lying

i made a little progress. i think so. it’s not just about lying, it’s also about communicating with others and telling them while things haven’t gotten so bad yet. my boyfriend has helped me a lot, but i’m still lying and hiding things from him. yes, it’s hard to get rid of old habits, but that’s no excuse. i love him so much. i want us to have a great relationship, so no lying, and definitely no cheating.
also, my mother is a great support to me and i have to, i want to be honest to her. our relationship has improved in the last time, i try not to lie to her. not even about small things. cause they can turn to big things. they did in the past.

i confessed the truth last night, and although i feel very bad about lying at all, i also feel like i got rid of a huge burden. i want to be honest, towards others and myself, too.

i did it again. now i give myself two days to confess and to apologize, and there will be consequences, but i’m all grown up now, and that’s what adilts do. right? or should do,,,

it’s killing me and i get into deep shit everytime because of it. i have to stop. i don’t like it. i know it’s bad and it makes me feel ashamed of myself everytime i do it. stop lying and stop pretending. sounds simple, but it’s not.
i’m a bad person.
would life be much simpler if people would tell truth more often??
i think mine would be…
well i can always say that’s in the family, but that’s why i don’t like my family