be happier with myself

Yesterday was a bad day on the whole self-esteem front. I don’t really know how to explain it, but I spent most of yesterday just feeling…annoyed with myself and the way I am. I was at a party when it just kind of began to feel all a bit much and to take some time out I went and sat on the stairs by myself (melodramatic I know).

Anyway, one of my friends came and sat with me for a bit and chatted with me, and by the end of it I felt a lot better. So maybe this isn’t really…being happy with myself. But I think something I am happy with is that I have a really good group of friends around me who’ll be there for me when I have these weird little attacks (which I can have sometimes) and who are always around to cheer me up and make me laugh.

Today I found I got 83% on my Chem mock resit. I got about…20% first time round. So that’s an improvement. And something to be proud about, as well, I suppose.

Oh, and I’m pleased that yesterday I actually got off my arse and went out with my friends in the evening, which is something I don’t do enough any more, I think. Not since starting college.

So there you go.

There are a couple of things I’m proud of this week. Getting pretty much near perfect scores on the roleplay section of my French oral mock (even if the topic was not exactly fantastic) when I thought I was going to cock it up. Managing to keep the crappy eating to a minimum – have had a vaguely proper lunch most days. Etc.

Today, I’m thinking of something I like about myself.

I think I’m quite a good listener. I think my friends can turn to me when they need to chat about something, even really important stuff. I quite like that. I like being trusted, and I like trying to help. I think it’s a good thing to be a good listener.

So there. A good thing about myself.

Every day I want to write down at least one thing that I like about myself, or about something I, personally, have done.

Soo… today I got 10/16 on a piece of Physics coursework. Apparently 13 is about an A, so if I can get those three marks, I’m set. Otherwise I don’t know what I’ve got – maybe like a B or C?

Which still isn’t that bad, considering it was a 3am job.

Also, I’m happy i managed to keep procrastinating to a minimum and have done almost everything on my to-do list for today… and it’s only quarter past five! :)