Discover myself

In order to try and discover myself, I’m going to begin keeping a diary in order to try and find out a bit more about myself. See, I don’t think I’m ever really truthful with myself about myself (shall I keep saying ‘myself’?) but maybe if I write down everything that goes on in my life, then I might be able to learn some stuff I didn’t know.

I’m not actually sure how long i’ll be able to keep this up but it’s worth a shot.

‘We shall not cease from exploration and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.’ – T.S Eliot

Well, I’m only 16 right now, almost 17, so I suppose it might be a little early to start this? I don’t know.

Thing is, at the end of the summer I have to start applying to universities, and that means I have to write my personal statement. And I don’t know what on earth I’d put on there.

I don’t think I do enough. I have a feeling all I do is sit around and use the computer or watch the TV, or go to college and sit around with my friends. That’s not enough, is it?

So maybe I should try some new things. I’ve put in an application to volunteer at a multiple sclerosis care home and should be working there as soon as the CRB form comes back. I also will be sending off an application to volunteer at a hospital.

And I think maybe I should try other things. Maybe I should get back into yoga, for instance. And maybe I should do stuff I’ve never done before, because I’m too lazy or too scared of leaving my comfort zone.

Hmm.