Improve my self-esteem

i’m fiercely sexy

Maaaaaaaaaan I am going through a major complex right now, nothing in my world is going right, i am this close to dropping out of school, thiiis close to running away to mexico and thiiiiiisss close to killing myself.
and now i have broken out in massive craters. fuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. now i am going to stress over how horrible i look and where is my self esteem?! I DONT KNOW!

gee whiz i have great bone structure!

i never ever wear my hair up in public because then i cant hide my face behind anything, but last night i had it up in a pony tail to my band rehersal [community orchestra band] and i was told i have nice bone structure!
awww yeahhh

i have made myself a door of positive affirmations. when i took self-esteem counseling i was instructed to keep a journal of nice things people had said about me, nice things i had said to someone, and nice things i thought of myself – daily. my counselor then printed all the nice things out on paper, cut them into singles, and i have them all hanging on my door, and when people come over they all add nice things about me on the door. and i look at it every day and im always reminded that im not a bad person and i have a lot going for me, its great.

So I dont really know what to update in this area, but I am feeling very good about myself. I dont know if its just because of where I am going with my life [which at the moment are good places] or if its because I am growing as a person, and realizing there is more to good self-esteem than having nice skin.

its going up and up everyday. i found a really great soap. no more hiding from mirrors.

its weird to say, but i think that this 43things place is helping my self-esteem. as i see all my goals and how i am doing so well with them, some which revolve around nonsense but lots that revolve around making me a better person, im finding out that my self-esteem isnt just how i feel about the way i look, but me as a person, how great can i be as a person? if i work hard and do everything i can do that makes me happy and betters others at the same time, i dont know how i could have low self-esteem. i am feeling mighty fine about myself lately, but who knows whats coming around the corner, so i am not taking this goal down as of yet.

as i have been doing number 2. notice my beauty, not just by my looks- i have been feeling better with myself as a person, inside and out. and i have been gaining more confidence, and am growing more comfortable with myself.