be more positive

since i broke up with my boyfriend, i found myself liberated. not because our relationship was suffocating, but i finally realized that i am not yet ready to share my life with someone. i am perfectly happy being single.

i find myself going out more, spending more time with the people i care about and consume obnoxious amounts of alcohol. not because i’m depressed, but because i am HAPPY.

i am slowly trying to let go of all my emotional baggages and picking up the pieces of the life i have put on hold for someone.

as my friend aptly put it: we are living one day at a time, literally.

should you feel as crappy as the one you broke up with if you were the one who initiated the breakup?

i feel bad of course, but that doesn’t stop me from feeling happy.

i have a lot of things to go on for.

i still have my life ahead of me.

you learn your lessons and move on.

i’m not an idealist, i am, in fact, a pragmatist.

but that doesn’t stop me from trying to be a positive influence.

my partner decided to ‘find himself’ and ‘fix stuff’ today.

this probably means:
a) he has a lot of things on his mind and he doesn’t feel like sharing
b) he needs space, from me, from everyone
c) he doens’t want me to get invlolved in stuff that he needs to handle on his own

although i care for him and my idea of being in the relationship is to fix things together, i totally understand him.

he’s young and being tied up in a very serious relationship with me can be very demanding. he needs space to be himself and i support him.

i’ll be here when he comes back.

it can’t be helped that there would be days that you would drag yourself out of bed and think about how bad your day is going to be.

it’s normal, we don’t live in some utopian world where eveything is perfect. but all we can do is cope.

today might be a bad day but tomorrow’s another day. i know it sounds like a cheesy script from a feel-good movie but it’s true.

like today, i just found out that my promotion is still being reviewed and there is a huge chance that it might get lost in limbo; my partner is jealous again and called off our date; and i really didn’t feel like going to work.

but i want to look at things differently. i can’t avoid reality but all i have is hope.

hope that tomorrow would be a better day. :-)

say something nice to someone and mean it.

people say nice things to each other just to strike up a conversation or in response to a nice thing said about them. some might mean it, some may not.

so it is my goal that when i say something nice, i would really mean it. and of course, top it with a smile. :-)

an ice cream cone, a walk in the park, getting free stuff, spending hours on a really good game or reading a really good book.

sigh. okay, hapy thoughts, happy thoughts.

the world is too crowdedand i’m suffocating in negativity. time to turn things around.

my first baby step: thing happy thoughts!