While i think all the goals on my list are personally challenging, I think this is one of the hardest for me to make progress in – which I guess in the end, if/when it happens, i’ll feel much more accomplished.
While I probably need therapy (who doesn’t?) I’m pretty good at figuring stuff out about myself. I think the main issue is how to go about changing it. Know what I mean? Like, some people get help so someone can help them figure out what’s wrong AND how to fix it, but I saved some money there. Haha, I can imagine myself walking in somewhere and presenting them with a laundry list of stuff and saying “Look, I’ve already got it figured out, so let’s cut to the chase here.”
But anyway, back to the topic at hand. There’s something about trusting people that’s…I don’t know. It’s like it’s nice in theory, but in practice, it can backfire like no other. And I think after seeing it not work, it takes a lot for me to trust people. Or people I started off trusting, I no longer trust. Also, I know there are people I should trust because they’ve shown me that I can trust them and count on them, but I personally fear trusting them and opening up to them. I think that part comes out of a fear of being judged negatively. Maybe I should add a goal about that one.
