Make new friends

Two of my closest friends called me mean names on Wednesday night when we got together. I’ve never been called a name (to my face) in my life! Boy, I was pretty shocked…and hurt! The phrase “with friends like these, who needs enemies?” came to mind.

this other gal and I have been emailing off an on for a couple of months now. we’ve never had the chance to meet. We were chatting this evening and I was telling her how I had plans to go to a show tonight in West Hollywood, but a friend I invited backed out. I know how I am. I wish I was the kind of person who could just be cool and go to the show, but I know I’d just sit home or at the library instead. So, I shared the myspace link of tonights performer with the gal and she was interested in going. So, tonight we’re going to go to the show together, and hopefully we’ll have a good time.

And seeing as how this friend was the only person I really hung out with, I’d say it’s time to make new friends…

:(

I feel this the most on a day like today when I have a lot to rant about (see: http://www.43things.com/entries/view/1634255) and I feel like there is no one to call! I can’t call my closest friend b/c that’s the friend I want to rant about and the other is busy doing something else. Yes, I guess there are people I know fairly well, and friends I used to be close to that i talk to every once in a blue moon, but they arent the kind of people I want to talk to on a day like this.

I started a book club. our second meeting is on Sunday. We’ll see how it goes.

I’m trying to meet new people in other ways too, but nothing has really happened the way Ive wanted it to

I don’t think I made a single new friend at school this year. next week is finals. I’ve become a bit more friendly with one of my friend’s roommates. But other than that, I can’t say I’ve made a single new friend during the current semester. Probably not last semester either, but I can’t remember that far back. When I was working at the bookstore (I quit a few weeks ago), I met a few people I was friendly with, but I don’t know if any of those relationships will continue now that I’m gone. So far, I haven’t heard from anyone.

But I don’t know if I’d consider them friends. Luckily, I think with every job I’ve had, I’ve liked my coworkers, and we get along really well. In very few situations has the relationship extended outside of the building. But, I guess, when I’m there 40 hours a week, I really don’t need to see them outside of the building too. I think sustaining the relationship only becomes a concern when someone leaves the place of employment – that’s when you actually have to make time to hang out with the people/person, because you don’t see them all the time anymore.

For the past few years, I’ve met more people I like through jobs I’ve had than I have at school – which kinda sucks, ‘cause college is supposed to be all great and whatever, but oh well!

And I haven’t made any new friends at school. I’ve met people, like my roommates and such, but I wouldnt consider them friends.

Considering I’ve been alone in my mom’s apartment 90% of the time since I’ve been back in California, it’s really not surprising that no improvements are beign made here. That’s a bummer, but I don’t feel too bad, because I did meet new people this summer through my internship.

Wow, I knew I liked them…and I knew I loved most of them…and I knew I’d miss them. But I didn’t realize how much I’d miss them. I always seem to make new friends and then lose them to something – someone moves, we part for college, we leave the place we worked at that kept us together, someone studies abroad…I lived intensely with these 8 other people for 7 weeks… doing journaling, eating meals together, doign clean up jobs, work crews and community work mornings, workshops together, spending free time together. I feel like I got to know these people better in 7 weeks than I do some people in a semester or an entire school year.

I’m very happy that I met them, don’t get me wrong. Some of them have impacted me like so many others have not. Yet…it’s so hard to transition back to life without them – who is going to use up all my shampoo? Who is going to walk in and take a bite out of my burger or a slice of my cake? Who will I bring a towel to when they forget to take it to the bathroom before they shower? Who will I walk to the Delaware River with? What four people will I squeeze onto a couch with? Who else is going to propose a road trip late at night? Who is going to save me plates of macaroni and cheese when I’m working late and I miss dinner?

So yeah, I’m pretty sad.