stop worrying so much about what i look like

still not making progress

This goal just isn’t getting accomplished! Too many setbacks and bad stuff. I guess this ties with the confidence goal too. Well, I’ve taken some new pictures of myself, including the one of me in the green dress which is my profile pic now. I kinda like it. I think it looks ok.

Ok, so, with my last two (which are the same as my first two) paychecks from my new job, I have spent a significant amount of money on new clothes. Now, normally this is the only time of year where I buy multiple items of clothing for myself at one time, mainly because of all the sales. So, normally, I wouldn’t think anything of it. But this year, I think I’ve kind of done it with the intention of trying really hard to look better. In and of it self, I guess that isn’t a bad thing. Not that my old clothes are bad, I just feel the need for more variety (you know, a 10th pair of jeans – I live in jeans), and new version of a piece I already own, or the occasional surprising piece (“I never thought you’d wear that!”). But then when I get home and re-try everything on I look in the mirror and go “argh, new clothes don’t change my face!” and then return at least half the stuff I bought – which is good for my wallet, I guess.

I can’t help it! Argh. How frustrating!

not having exposure to any form of media would help.

...it’s funny to think that I’ve received 23 cheers on this goal…

and I can’t help it.

At least I don’t go all psycho trying to compensate by wearing flashy clothing and lots of makeup.

it’s just a preoccupation I have.

Sigh.