draw in my sketchbook everyday

i bought a small one i could carry around everywhere and it’s no damn use. maybe the fact that it’s an actual sketchbook drives me away. but somehow i end up drawing stuff on binder paper or on the back of brochures. everything i draw in my sketchbook looks very amateur. maybe i was destined to draw on homework assignments.

i have maybe 5 different sketchbooks for different themes/things i use to draw and i haven’t picked them up in a couple of weeks. they just sit on the floor collecting dust. who knows what i could teach myself? chances of getting better are just slipping away with time. i want to get better at drawing small faces quickly and cleaning up my shading.

i guess i just get too scared that if i do something fugly i’ll ruin the entire book. i’ll start tonight!