become a better person

Hi everyone,

I know its been months and the emails have been reminding me to get on and tell how i have been doing.

I am fantastic lately, except for the constant lack of sleep!!

I am winding down the antidepressants, should be off them in about 6-12 months i would say… it does take a long time to come off these for those who are unaware!!

My partner and i are looking at buying a house.. even with the recent economic problems!! we haven’t started saving yet, but will soon, after some debts are paid off!!

So i am very happy at this point!!!

Ok, so it has been 2 weeks since I last put an entry in here, but I am however very happy to report that I have been good, and trying really hard for this!!

First off, I am back together with my boyfriend, and he is so far happy with my progress.

I am not taking little things to heart, and remaining cheerful at most times, even if I am completely buggered and could sleep more.

I am going to try to get off my Antidepressants too!! this may take a little more time than I would like, but the more cheerful I can remain, the closer this time comes!!

Will try to get online a little more often so I can get back to you on my progress!!!

Love Coley

So now to go onto what my first step towards a better me.

I promised him that i would get to know and spend time with his friends.

I made this step last sunday, when I messaged one of his friends, and asked if she would like to go for coffee, and i also let her know what was going on, and how i do want to better myself.

She is very happy to help me towards my goal, and we are getting together on Saturday. she then surprised me last night (Wednesday) by asking about going to a bbq with all of his friends.

I feel better that i am getting a chance to redeem myself for being such a bitch at times. hopefully also will move a step closer to him.

I have also been out socialising with some friends, and managed to make it to two movies this week, so I am a little happier than I was a week ago.

Ok so here we go, this is my first time on this site, and I only found it because I google’d “Become a better person”

The reason why I want to become a better person, is so I can have another chance with the most wonderful guy in the world.

I tend to stress over the little things, and am a bit of a recluse! This led to my boyfriend breaking up with me over fights and my lack of interest in spending time with his friends.

We have decided to try to work things out, but only if i can change these few things about me which I don’t even like.

I think my problems come from a bad 5 year relationship that I had, where we would not socialise and only fight about stupid things, I think now, that when I came out of that relationship, I had missed out on so much of my life, and going straight into a new relationship, I was not able to change or understand the difference.