be more open to people that I care

My life is full of secrets. I don’t know why I have so many things that I make myself obligated to keep and that I would be ashamed if somebody found that out. I am such a hypocrite. I keep saying that this and that are bad for people but I always end up taking them just because I need to reach my goal.

I keep saying that people shouldn’t do this and that and yet, I always end up doing it just because I let my heart win over my head.

I am a coward, aren’t I?