Or if I sleep with them, oh well. It’s not like everything has to be perfectly planned out in advance and stuck in a straightjacket. The point is to be free of feeling like I have to be attracted to many girls that I meet and in the confines of polite 1950s guy behavior. Sex is a form of control so that would contradict goal #1 (“be free”), to always be attracted to and on edge around girls. Freaking out about relationships or sex would be against the don’t be too serious goal not to mention goal #1 (which I may now be taking too seriously, argh!). I think I’m mostly trying to say that I need to relax around girls.