Now that The Boy and I have decided to call things quits, I am having something of an epiphany – a major contributing factor to my attitude towards alcohol when he and I were together concerned the fact that I just didn’t feel comfortable with him in social settings (ever), and liquor helped to bridge the gap.
With this realisation, and the end of that relationship, I find that I’m drinking less and drinking better (if I can use that term). I have a glass or two of wine with S and we share and discuss and learn about each other. H, C and I play extended sessions of cards over a bottle of red and laugh until our insides hurt. TG takes me out for cocktails and spectacular memories.
I think it’s fair to say that I’ve reformed my attitude to alcohol. I’m going to mark this as done.
Aug 04, 2008, 02:45PM PDT | 2 cheers | 0 comments
Alterations
17 months ago
My original implementation of this goal was as something of an extreme knee-jerk reaction after an awful, drunken night with The Boy.
It feels like a cop-out to change the name of this goal, but the issue is not that I am drinking, it’s that I’m drinking too much. There. I said it. Too much in one sitting, too many nights.
I still want to be able to muse with H over a glass of red and discuss the joys of right-wing economics, or get all silly over a pink cocktail with S. But what I need to do is moderate how I drink and do it responsibly.
This means:
- Only 1-2 nights a week where I drink at all
- Limiting myself to 3 drinks max on those nights
- Enjoying the social aspects of alcohol-consumption (i.e. not drinking to get drunk)
Furthermore, I’m going to make this goal not just for 30 days, but for good.
Jul 04, 2008, 05:17PM PDT | 4 cheers | 0 comments
