get over my broken heart

Such a mixture of emotions. Some small part of me still loves my ex. Mostly, though, I feel such a great deal of anger, loneliness, and sadness. My feelings about the break up would not be so strong if other aspects of my life were better. I mean, if I had a job that I really liked, I wouldn’t think about my ex so often. I guess those other parts of my life are the things I really have to work on right now.

I told my ex that I wasn’t going to have any contact with him in the future for an indeterminate period of time. He says that he wants to be friends with me. However, whenever we get together, we just have sex, which seems to be the only time that he is really nice to me. Even worse, he has been seeing another girl, who he takes to parties and who he has introduced to his friends. He treats me like a mistress or his “dirty little secret.” But, I ended it today. This is a great step towards regaining my life and my self-esteem. Although I am not looking for anyone right now, the next guy that I am with will treat me with the respect that I deserve.

On Friday, I will move out of the apartment that my boyfriend and I shared for almost a year. I think that this is the best thing that I can do for myself right now. Even though my ex had moved out of the apartment, I still had daily contact with him. This has made it impossible to get over him. In my head, I know that he is not right for me. I also know that I need to start living and putting myself first. But, some part of me still loves him and is convinced that our relationship could work. Distance and time will help me to forget him.

My boyfriend broke up with me about a month ago. I am still not over him. Unfortunately, we were living together in his apartment, so now I have to move. And, on to of it all, I was just laid off from my job. I feel like I have nothing. On the other hand, my boyfriend still has the lease on the apartment, his job, and I think that he has started seeing someone. He acts as if our three year relationship meant nothing. I don’t think that I will ever get over the relationship until I get out of this apartment and stop seeing my ex-boyfriend (who has been living elsewhere for the past month, but whom I see or talk to everyday). I just wish that I could move on.