Keep losing weight till I reach my goal weight

Okay, so by tomorrow (my 33rd bday) I wanted to go back to my natural regular weight:125. I weighed 125 lbs since I was 13…save an occasional pig out month…and in the last year I gained almost 15 pounds! However, I started running recently and one day at the gym, in the afternoon no less, I weighed myself at 132! I was so excited! I know I can’t lose more by tomorrow, but just being on my way makes it worth it! =0)

I’ve been working out every day for 30 mins at least—I’ve been working hard enough that I don’t want to ruin it all by sucking down a quart of ice cream. Toning today, running again tomorrow, and so on. Bikini, here I come! =0)

Let’s see…a huge chocolate chip cookie, four slices of white bread, half a chocolate bar, chips…I’m either PMSing early or I have it in for myself. Apparently the little internal gnome I have has misread my intentions, thinking I want to GAIN weight. Sight. Only 15 lbs to go, if I stop being a snackaholic.

I gained 15 pounds since I started this “I’m gonna lose wieght” venture. Dumbass. How did I do that?? Anyway, I decided to not allow myself to get anywhere near a scale for a while. I also decided, one week ago, to start drinking SlimFast shakes (all my friends were doing it…peer pressure and all that) for breakfast, oatmeal for lunch, loads of fresh fruit and veggies, and a healthy dinner. No extra snacks unless I did a long run, no dessert unless with was fruit with honey and walnuts. I am doing yoga every morning, running or dancing every evening. After a week of that, actually two weeks, my body feels better! Who cares about the WEIGHT—it’s the FEEL that’s important! I gotta keep this trend going! =0)

I lost 2 pounds but I did not lose my goal weight. No shopping for me (which is okay since I need to save money). I promise myself to do this again…by my bday I will have lost the last of the weight—8 pounds!

For two days I have eaten sooo well! I’m very proud of myself, and I still think there’s enough time to meet my goal. My weakest point was when I was emotionally low, so of course comfort foods (french fries, for me) are all-consuming. Since I let myself imbibe in a “bad night” not only am I whole-heartedly “back on the diet wagon” but I am a bit more comforted, too =0)

I totally blew it tonight—I was so hungry after a comedy show that I ended up eating an entire plate of grilled cheese and french fries. AAAAH! Why did I do it? Okay, tomorrow is another day and I will keep trudging on!

I have been so good with my eating and so good with excercising! I feel better about my body and I have more energy, too! I think I’m almost there…yay!

I’ve tried this once before, but hopefully second time is a charm? I need to lose that last bit of weight in one and a half months. That is, actually, plenty of time—as long as a eat my high fiber diet and do something active every day! Wish me luck…no, wish me energy! =0)

So, for Lent I gave up television…apparently, my tv addiction has now been replaced by “boredom eating.” So instead off losing the poundage I want I’ll end up blaming the Catholic church for not fitting in my clothes any more. I’m trying to find satiating alternatives to muching—gardening, going on a walk, laundry (it keeps me busy) or at the least eating carrots and fruit and flax-seed-chips but nothing seems to matter!!!! My ass is about to eclipse the sun and my once trim waistline is now wrapping around into a collection of back fat. AAAAAA! When will it end??? I’m working out every day from tomorrow on!