grow closer to Christ

i found this beautiful relationship w/ Christ once my boyfriend and I broke up. i wanted to find him because of the break up and because i am dealing with depression and anxiety. well anyway everything was going great then i relapsed and i didnt pray, read my bible, listen to gospel music, didnt even acknowledge God for a good 2-3 weeks…it scared me because i wanted to but i was afraid. i trusted him and he failed me. i trusted him to keep my loved ones safe, then he took my grandmother away. then he took my boyfriend/best friend away [he’s not dead, we just don’t go together]. i trusted him but i have a mother who continues to verbally attack me. i have a father who ignores me and disrespects my mother. i am a nice person but i have friends who use me and the abuse me [being cliche’]. but after all of that i still love him and i still thank him…because hopefully i can look back and be proud of all i went through to appreciate all that i will have.