lose weight until I reach my goal weight and look as sexy as I know I am

with pride intact. When I started this goal I gained 6 pounds. Then I lost it. I have no difficulty dieting, but the only way I know how is to stop eating enough. And so for 2 weeks I had low energy and I just haven’t been as much fun or gotten as much done.

After a bit of introspecting on some of wonderul Amy’s entries and Absnasm’s great advice here I decided that I should treat myself as well as I was spouting that other’s treat themselves, not to mention do a bit of shopping. I bought a couple of fooler vests and wore one today. Checked myself out in the mirror and I look good. Fine, I don’t look like an athlete or a movie star. But I look tidy and trim enough. If I’m stuck at this weight for the rest of my life, I’m fine with that.

So I’ll stick to my nutrition and exercise goals but not this one. With all respect for the ladies working hard on this goal, I just don’t want it bad enough. I’m changing my goal weight to 153. Which is what I weigh now.

And according to everyone else I’m already sexier than I know I am.

Lost 3 pounds since I found out I weigh more than Jimmy Stewart did. I don’t know if I should count my weight loss from when I started this goal or from the weight I gained after I started this goal, but it’s 150 now. I can’t weight wait to be back in the 140’s.

Unfortunately I only seem to be losing it from my breasts.

Since adding this goal, I started exercising and watching what I ate, gained 6 pounds. Go figure. I’ve since lost it again and am back where I started. Mostly I’m having a hard time getting motivated.

Then of all things, I’m reading about Jimmy Stewart (the actor, not the writer of calculus textbooks) and I read that he was initially rejected for the military because he weighed 140 pounds and needed to weight 148. Great, I weigh more than a 6’4” man. This has completely floored me.

It hasn’t mattered to me that my pants are too tight or my knees ache or my thighs spread. But this revelation about Jimmy Stewart has completely strengthened my resolve. Go figure.

I’ve hesitated because all the anorexics on this site completely turn me off wanting to diet. I noticed the weight creeping up and was in total denial (the dryer shrunk my clothes, the scale is off, I’m retaining….). Cut out a few bad eating choices and it is slipping back down slowly. But I miss being slim and the way my clothes used to fit. I’m sure a few less pounds might help my back and knees too.

So what to set as a goal weight? I’ve teetered around this. I’m 5’7” and 153 lb right now. I felt my best ever in my life after my son was born when I got down to 136 but that was with only one child and time to walk 10K & do a work out each day (plus lots of breastfeeding). I was 144 when I last went back to work (darn lunches). Maybe compromise and say 140. Yes. Goal weight 140. Unless I feel good about things sooner than that.

ETA: don’t anyone compare, my bones are long, but really narrow, much smaller than most petites, I have the wrists of a 10 year old girl! So for me 140 isn’t skinny, for someone else my height I’d say it’s too skinny