I’ve needed to go out these past few days round to the shops but I can’t face it. It’s the same old thing with me. I think about what it is that’s stopping me, if I needed to go out and know that know one else would be about, that is no problem for me at all. I’ve sometimes got up really early and gone to my local park and I’ve been very happy. But the prospect of meeting people, or I should say people meeting me fills me with dread. Why though?
Maybe it’s because of what they might think of me, would validate what I think of myself… Maybe because when I’m out I feel so self conscious and down about myself. At home I’m confident and happy. I’ve got alot of interests and things to do, and not enough time to do it :)
I need to work on being positive about myself, then I know I can face things differently. What’s it matter what anyone else thinks anyway?!
