do something that scares me everyday for one year

I was too nervous to cut off my super long bangs and get actual forehead bangs, but I played drums today – in front of people. :o

I didn’t say what I was thinking.

I didn’t rock out when I should have.

I kept quiet.

I made a mistake and felt exceptionally dumb, instead of trying to tell myself to learn from it.

I relied on what other people thought.

And I didn’t get up at the proper time. (Getting up early is scary…)

So today…I failed at my goal. Na, ja. (German for oh, well.)

Today I talked to someone whose amazing bass skills intimidate me.

I have this thing about intimidating people and not being able to talk to them…

I’m such a jerk I didn’t even play the cymbals during the concert piece in fear I’ll mess up and get super embarassed. It was, like, 5 notes…

I WILL do it on Monday, even if I fail.

(Plase God don’t let me fail. =/ )

So today I competed in a Forensics competition (competitive acting), and it was my first time to do any real ‘public speaking.’ I wrote a speech and performed that. Shockingly, I placed first! I’m pretty much…ecstatic.

I am subconsiously afraid of so, so many things, or things I just get amazingly nervous over…

I think it would be great to try and overcome them everyday…like playing my drums loud in fear I’ll mess up! Yeah, not so good…Or cockroaches…scarily afraid of those too.