Untitled — 4 months ago
So these are the people I look up to, They were going to teach me right from wrong, that life matters or go to when I need help? Well that is a little backwards these days. Starting with unplanned, unwanted pregnancy, cheating, anger, bad marriage, divorce, homeless, alcohol, steeling, atemted suicide, giving up and just plain lazy. NOT ME!!!
My father blames everyone for all that has gone wrong in his life and has just givin up. My mother blames my father and it seems stuck in no better place them him but thinks she is. They dont work, he lives off his ssi because hes tryed killing himself and is depressed, she lives off the spousel support that gets takin out of his ssi but its hardly living. Hes in hotels trying to do it again, and shes on my couch making excuses of why she cant work or take a walk other then to spend the money she gets on bullshit like movies.
That will never be me! I will not give up on life or myself. I will never be a burden on my children or anyone. And they will never have to worrie everytime the phone rings woundering if I was found dead do to suicide.
