Each morning, I wake up alone. It’s just my alarm and myself and there is nothing else in substance. So what good is the day? I want to feel comfortable again when someone sees me in the morning, but lately I’ve been in this huge slump where I slip more and more away from the possibility of someday being married to a man I get all goofy about.
I’m sure it’s worth doing. The last time a relationship fell apart for me, I thought, ‘That’s it, no more’... and there hasn’t been anything more. It’s a bit like I’ve closed myself off from that entirely, even though I want it more than anything. I refuse to retreat to a bar each night searching for the love of my life. I’m down on meeting friends of friends, and I don’t want to go on date #2 when I know it’s not going to work out.
I don’t think I’m asking for advice. I’d just like to know that I’m not the only one.
