Spend more time socializing

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Have made amends to most I have wronged in my past life of addiction and self hatred. I often had acted out as youth and I have to say when I was contacted by so many people who stated that they have been looking for me I was truly touched. Redemption comes in odd shaped packages but it fits so good. I feel reconnected and really good. This was not ever contingent on approval of others but I am so pleased to know that I had friends all along. Now I just feel silly for not seeing this before.

Well, i have found out a little but about myself in trying to make frineds with others. First of all, I like sweet people to hang around with because I’m am very animated but mild, I just want everyone to get al ong and I don’t like a bunch of hassles about it. We should all just be nice to each other and foster good things/postive experiences in each other right? Well, I am looking for people who believe that as well because otherwise they’re not going to see therough my smart-ass sometimes bitchy tuff exterior. I’ve also learned that I don’t want to hang out with just anyone, and the oddest people strie me as interesting. Usually those are people with a lot of vereve or depth in there eyes.. Idon’t know how else to explain it, but you can’t find this jsut anywhere. I learned that sometimes all you have to do is to pick up the phone adn it’s a lot easier tthan you think to reconnect with friends/luvd ones. It’s the maintenance of these relationships and growth therein that cost you time and care. Lonelilness is a natural reminder that we are created to try to build these relationships and although it makes us vulnerable thee return is epic.
I need to take a moment to thank God that I have been able to reconnect with another lost friend of my past- Jennifer. I will do all that I can to treat the oportunity with the love and respect it deserves. aka I won’t screw it up.

I don’t know exactly why but I just don’t have many friends right now. i’m not very concerned with it though because I did try to make friends and found out that like love you don’t really have to look for it. God sends you people to love every day. So like a fool I just keep trying but oplans just seem to keep falling through with others. Although, it soes seem to make it more difficult for me also since like most I’m low on cash. There’s always something to spend your money on, right? Well I will keep plugging away on this. I am getting aquainted with a very nice Spanish speaking woman at work, little younger than myself but seems about my maturity level. I’m sure that continually investing time on this endeavor is worthwhile and friendships takes time to grow

Recently went out for Margaritas twice with good friend, Austin at a local Mex Rest. It wuz kul so I’ve decided to make ot my haunt when I want to get my buzz in with a friend and we can just walk back to my house it’s soo close. that’s not all the socializing I hav done though. I have also made it a point to look everyone, the not creepy ones, in the eyes and smile lately adn say Hi. This is so overlooked today since we are all stuck non our ipod or on the phone. I have also made it a point to get in contact wth all old friends that I can find to tell them that I that I would like to reconnect. I made on e new friend in the last few months which has fostered fairly nicely. I have also gotten close with an old friend again which feels nice. This is progress.