stop wishing it would happen and make it happen

so I decided to send an email, instead of waiting 2 weeks to clear things up, hope it all works out we’ll see but the the important thing is I did something and I think I made the right choice on this one…don’t know if she’d still be waiting two weeks from now, not with her already doubting how I feel…yeah, made the right choice.=D

well this is like a i wish i did it after it happend so it kind of counts..this would be under the saw that girl looking at me and wish i had gone up to talk to her colum yea its pretty much self explanatory. theres this girl, shes real cute, and like everyday she looks at me and i look at here too but iv never gotten the courage to just go up to her and strike up a convo…which is, for me at least, harder than it sounds…especially because i think shes cute. im pretty sure if it was just some random girl id be able to do it but in this case…well im screwed.. like what could i talk about? i mean im really not all that good at starting convo’s and( one of my good friends told me this) but like when i first meet people im not very talkative and im not really the full me…if that makes sense..im not crazy and stuff and all that im kinda shy and everything, not quite as shy as i used to be but just enough so that it gets in the way…well…i wonder how this will go? anywho thats my entry for the day :)...

well ive decided im gonna stop wishing somthing will happen and well..im gonna make it happen,im gonna stop saying wow i wish i could just take more pictures i wish i could just go up to that girl and talk to her, and im gonna make it happen. no longer will i sit in the back sit of this ride called life, im gonna take the wheel and drive where i wanna go!!

wow i feel pumped :),im imagining myself shouting this to like a giant group of people and hearing them scream ahhhhh. go chitundu(my name, its african so its hard to say :). but i digress,back to reality itl probably take a while to fully say that im no longer wishing il do something and doing it but you cant win a heart in a day ( just thought of that now im proud :) maybe it should be one of the qoutes i live by? it be a good one to keep in mind