get a job

i’m excited, but the job is 25 miles away and it’s for part-time, seasonal at min wage. so it might not be worth it. oh well, a job is a job and it will still look good on my resume to finally have a real one!

Tomorrow I’m going out to put apps into places that I can’t apply to online. I have 8 places I can apply to online for tonight!

I had an interview at Petsmart and I didn’t get the job. =[ Petsmart is where I have always wanted to work, and I got the chance to be a dog bather/groomer! Ugh. I need a job so bad.

I do want one, but at the same time I am afraid to get one. I haven’t been to social lately and to just jump right in and deal with a ton of people all on my own sounds like a really hard thing for me to handle. I know I need to get out there again and it will be best, but the beginning of it is going to be miserable. I wish I had a friend I could work with, that would make it a little easier. Plus I have a hard time making eye-contact now. I used to be able to do it all the time and people probably thought I was creepy for looking so long but it didn’t make me uncomfortable. I don’t want customers to think I am rude or something, and I don’t want other employees to hate me because I am so shy and won’t be able to look at them for long.