Get closer to my sister

This is even less likely than my goofy goal of wanting to work for Seth MacFarlane. I mean, seriously! I won’t see her for AT LEAST another 7 months. We have NOTHING in common. I love her, don’t get me wrong. But searching in SF (the city? Anyone?) for 6 hours and then giving up really will do a number on your patience. My mom is almost distraught with my ‘unwillingness’ to write my sister while she’s out of state. But seriously – who is unwilling to communicate with whom here? The sister who ran away, leaving no note? or the sister that’s been desperately trying to keep the first sister from dying? I begged her to talk to me, and I bared my soul to her several times, and what did I get? Either BS or nothing. That gets old quick. And she’s still not being honest with the counselors at the ‘place’. She’s not being honest with my parents, either. Why would I want to talk to a liar? I know she’s safe, I know she’s being taken care of, and I know she’s not with that loser boyfriend. I’m good for now.
It’s just so hard, because I love her… But I’m so angry.
But I love her.

We don’t even live in the same state, and the program she’s in means I can’t talk to her either. I mean I can, but I’m still too pissed that she ran away to live with her drug dealer boyfriend. And we’re the nice family across the street from you.

i don’t know if i’m going to be able to do this. i mean, we’re incredibly different from each other and not just that we like different things. she thinks i have standards that are too high and i think that i just am overly critical so that i can take the offensive instead of having to defend myself. it’s a social anxiety disorder/depression thing. yay. maybe we will be able to do this in a year or forty, but i don’t think it’ll work out in this decade. wish me luck.