why is it so easy sometimes to accept and love others for who they are, yet constantly critique yourself. Others walk all over you and only lead to feel worse. whether it be my upbringing or merely low self esteem, I’ve always been the one to put others first. I allow myself to be stepped on because no matter how deeply it hurt me, I felt a compelling sense of empathy to never hurt anyone the way I always got hurt.
turns out empathy is overrated. I struggle daily with it. a blessing because i will always have an open mind and view both sides of any story…a curse because I would let my memories of very bad experiences in the past and my sense of empathy determine how I felt, because by making the choice to put others feelings before my own-i could never win and it only worsened my sense of self.
I love me for me. The people in my life who have walked away from me or hurt me deeply made the choice to lose something great. I can’t go back and force them to see it, just as I can’t force anyone I meet now to see it. but I can make the choice to recognize those who would not fully appreciate me…and walk away. and that’s good stuff : )
