I can’t remember the last time i had a night out and not worried about what people see when they look at me. I can hardly remember the last time i went out clubbing properly because i’ll have to wear frumpy clothes to feel comfortable physically, but those frumpy clothes make me feel unsexy and it all perpetuates what i already feel, im ugly, uninteresting, overweight and no one would look twice.
I have a fiance who has given up reassuring me after 6 years together, the fact that we go out and women still have their eyes all over him on the one hand should give me confidence that a man so beautiful still sees fit to be with me, but then i think if i’m good enough for him why don’t i get more attention? Not that i want to pull, it’s just always nice to catch someone looking at you, and for some reason when anyone does come anywhere near me im horrid to them, i suppose in case they find that i’ve nothing interesting to say!!
I’m a shadow of my former self, i used to be the life and soul, i need to get back to being me, if that’s what i want to be and i have been it before then it shouldn’t be too hard should it?
