concieve

I really had no idea how long it had been since I stopped by 43 Things until I read this message.

About a month after writing the last post, I/we concieved without fertility treatments! The timing was a bit off, but really, why complain?

Just 89 more days until he’s due :)

I haven’t wanted to add an entry here for a while, too much was going on. But, it seems like some of the fog of fear is…well, if not lifting, at least having a defineable edge.

It looks like one more surgery and we can start infertility. I’m still quakeing a bit at the idea. Both, really: the surgery and the infertility. I just want the magic to happen and not have to do any of this. Since that’s not going to happen, I can just stand here, admiring the end of the fog.

I wasn’t going to post on this goal. Its almost invasive enough to admit that there’re problems “down there.” To write about it? Way too much information for anyone who would read.

What I can say: I have to put this goal off for a while, though I don’t know how long. Although it doesn’t look like the other TMI problem is life threatening, the doctors agree that infertility treatment just has to wait until they figure out just what’s going on there.

How vague is that? I apologize. I still have a hard time understanding that I need infertility treatment. To have to then put it off just feels so…disconnected.