I cant stop.
They ruin me.
I’m so happy when i’m doing them, and then when i’m not life is so over whelming alls i can think of is murdering myself, but i know how it feels to loose someone to suicide, and i wouldnt be able to do that to people.
I wonder if when addicts are off the drugs, if they really feel better?
but i dont think i will.
I dont think there is any hope either.
