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ABOUT 3 WEEKS AGO I WENT DRIVING WITH MY AUNT. SHE HAS A FAIRLY NEW BMW AND SHE TOLD ME TO GET IN. WELL WE CAME TO A SCHOOL’S EMPTY PARKING LOT AND SHE TOLD ME TO GET IN THE DRIVER’S SEAT. I WAS SHOCKED BECAUSE SHE RARELY LETS ANYONE SO MUCH AS MOVE HER CAR. ANYWAY I PRACTICED A BIT WITH HER AND BOTH OUR KIDS IN THE CAR…WHICH WAS ALWAYS A DISTRACTION. SHE SAID I DID VERY WELL AND I JUST NEED TO LEARN TO USE SPEED. SHE DRIVES LIKE BATMAN LOL BUT SHE HAS A POINT. THE CAR THAT IS IN MY POSSESION IS A MAZDA AND THE SLIGHTEST TAP SEEMS TO GIVE A JOLT OF SPEED. THAT SCARES ME. ON ANOTHER OCCASION WHICH WAS PAST SUNDAY MY GRAMMA’S CAR WOULDNT START. WELL THE MAZDA WAS BLOCKED IN. I HAD AN IDEA OF HER PUTTIN IN IN NEUTRAL WHILE MY AUNT AND I WOULD PUSH IT OUT AND WE GIVE IT A JUMP. WELL ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I GET NERVOUS ABOUT IS THE NEIGHBORS WATCHIN ME DRIVE BECAUSE THEY NEVER REALLY SEEN ME DO IT. MY AUNTS IDEA WAS TO HAVE THE NEIGHBOR HELP HER PUSH WHILE I BACK THE OTHER ONE OUT. IT WAS RAINING AND COLD THAT DAY. WITHOUT THINKING TWICE I TOOK A DEEP BREATH AND DID IT. I DIDNT HAVE THAT NERVOUS FEELING AT ALL. I SUPRISED MYSELF BY BEING CALMER THAN I USUALLY AM. IF I CAN JUST THINK IN TERMS OF SPEED CONTROL I WILL GET THIS DOWN.

TODAY I WENT AROUND THE BLOCK DRIVING AFTER NOT EVEN SITTING IN THE DRIVERS SEAT FOR OVER A MONTH. I AM SO SCARED TO DRIVE ALONE SO I ASKED MY COUSIN TO GO WITH ME. HE DIRECTED ME ON WHAT I SHOULD DO. HE BASICALLY SAID WHEN I TURN TO KINDA TAP THE BREAK A LITTLE BIT. I HAVE PROBLEMS WITH MY SPEED AND BREAKING. IM AFRAID TO ACCELERATE. I ALSO GET NERVOUS WHEN CARS WERE FOLLOWING TOO CLOSELY. I FEL LIKE SUCH AN IDIOT. MILLIONS OF PEOPLE DRIVE EVERYDAY WITH NO PROBLEMS AND I FREEZE UP EVERYTIME I EVEN THINK ABOUT GETTING BEHIND THE WHEEL. ALOT OF IT IS EMBARASSMENT TOO. I THINK I SHOULD GO EVERY OTHER DAY OR ATLEAST 3 TIMES A WEEK TO GET OVER THIS. THEN MAYBE I CAN BE IN THE CAR ALONE. I AM TRYING TO GET THRU THIS AND IN TIME MAYBE I WILL BUT TODAY I CANT CALL IT.