live passionately

about how passionately he is living his life. Last night he accomplished his dream of Dying to get on Letterman

All I can say is Good Job!!! You are an inspiration.

I lived every day 110%. I had a home, family, career, active in my church and community, had hobbies, traveled…of course it wasn’t roses everyday but there weren’t many thorns.

Then came the next phase of my life where I lost my husband, my home, got very sick, almost died and was basically reborn into a life I had no idea what to do with. I have bounced from hither and yon thinking the grass is greener elsewhere because my life had disappeared.

Like a drowning person I grabbed on to anything that came my way to help me survive this trauma. I had no idea what to do next. This phase has lasted 7 years.

Scientists say our bodies rejuvenate all of the time and become brand new every 7 years. I don’t know if this is true but I am going to believe the next phase of my life is starting now.

I once loved my life. It is my choice to do that again. I will live very passionately with a home, family, career, friends, church, community, hobbies and travel…whether it is here in the wilderness or back in the city.

It’s good to be back. :)

Call it family ties, friendship, church home, community spirit and last but not least a member of this particular social internet network…there are millions of people here on 43 Things and yet we truly connect with the people we could never meet in the “real” world.

We guard each other. We help, we encourage and we sympathize with each other because truth be known we are not different in our souls…we all want to be happy, comfortable and to be able to love and be loved…we reach out and others are there to help us.

It’s amazing to me but tonight I’m thinking 43 Things is the medium to bring peace to the world (who are the robots? how did they create this community?)... bringing us together where ever we live…we can have different political and religious beliefs yet even if you and I don’t see eye to eye on an issue we may have a mutual friend and that creates a bridge of understanding between us!

Wow! I am amazed. Some say this is the end times…

I’m thinking it is a new beginning. :)

by Point of Grace

Wake up to the sunlight with your windows open
Don’t hold in your anger or leave things unspoken
Wear your red dress, use your good dishes
Make a big mess and make lots of wishes

And have what you want, but want what you have
And don’t spend your life looking back

Turn up the music
Turn it up loud
Take a few chances and let it all out
‘Cause you won’t regret it
Looking back from where you have been
‘Cause it’s not who you knew
And it’s not what you did
It’s how you live

So go to the ballgames and go to the ballet
And go see your folks more than just on the holidays
Kiss all your children, dance with your wife
Tell your husband you love him every night

Don’t run from the truth ‘cause you can’t get away, no
Face it and you’ll be okay

(Chorus)

Oh, wherever you are and wherever you’ve been
Now is the time to begin
So give to the needy, and pray for the grieving
Even when you don’t think that you can
‘Cause all that you do is bound to come back to you
So think of your fellow man
And make peace with God, and make peace with yourself
‘Cause in the end, there’s nobody else

that I was holding myself back. That I could actually do everything on my list and then some if I just decided thats what my life was going to be.

Instead of believing him I moped around for a couple of years feeling like a victim instead of a victor. I prayed then whined that things weren’t going my way… all the time missing the bountiful blessings that were being shoved in my direction.

The house I rented last May with little more than the clothes on my back and a few dishes is now a home filled with gifts from friends and family plus a few treasures I have found in the past year…I call it my home that love built.

Not only do I have a bounty of friends and family here in the wilderness that will share as much time as I will give them but I have a new niche that compliments my real estate services business and may actually grow to a point where I can offer others employment.

If I turned off the TV and/or stayed home a few evenings a week to work on my plan instead of running out to meet friends I could easily get backing for all of my children’s projects. Every time I speak of them people are very supportive and enthusiastic. I just haven’t done the preliminary work to get them funded.

Same goes for my writing…besides my few entries here and my morning pages I haven’t written much. That takes a discipline that I haven’t had the past few years.

My empowerment workshops are in the same place…not of disinterest but of fear (false evidence appearing real) that I didn’t have anything to offer. As my deceased husband used to say Oh contrare(sp), mon ami…I do have much to offer others in hope and happiness surviving through difficult times.

As they say God does not give us more than we can handle. They also say what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.

I do know I cannot do all of this alone. But as you can see God has been with me every step of the way. I need to trust He will be with me on my new adventures too. :)

not too long ago when people questioned my actions I would question me too.

Last night a male friend stopped by that I haven’t seen in a few days. In the meantime I have gotten a few items to make my home more homey. When you have money that is easy but without much extra you have to be a great shopper. ;)

Anyway he started in on how I had all these things in Texas so why was I buying things here? Little does he know that my tastes haven’t changed over the years so everything will go together fine.

But just the fact he questioned what I was doing intrigued me.
What makes people criticize others so easily? I have never once questioned him about his decisions or how he spends his money.

Guess this is just one of the small mysteries of life.

and vivid imagination takes a wild detour into the valley of drama and heartbreak for no logical reason.

Last night was just such a night…my feelings were just bubbling over into a volcanic outburst. I hate when that happens.

Luckily, nothing bad was said and no one was hurt…that in itself is a huge improvement in my behavior.

My Destiny Number is 3:

The number 3 Destiny suggests that the direction of growth in your lifetime will be toward a more creative and inspirational nature. This path also leads to establishing yourself as an inspiration person spreading optimism and cheerfulness wherever you reside or travel. The byword for the 3 Destiny is embracing the joy of living and helping others to do the same.

A large part of your mission in life centers around raising the spirits of your fellow man. This might be on a everyday small scale basis, or it might be by being on stage as an entertainer. Obviously, for most, the first more likely, but, this Destiny does incline you along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching. For some the interest in and appreciation of the arts is there, but the creative pursuit of these interests might not arrive.

You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You may indeed be a natural salesman as the 3 traits are always welcome in sales and public relations. You are imaginative in your presentation and a pleasure to be around.

As you mature you must become an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. You must develop an ability to communicate effectively in order to inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate.

Friends are extremely important to the 3 Destiny, and you must develop the ability to be a true friend. Through this talent you will achieve success. Opportunities open for you as you become increasingly social.

The negative side of number 3 Destiny is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.

What’s your number?

to those that I can easily accomplish with my experience and background is my focus. This was an easy decision to make.

Where to pursue these goals is a different story.

I reached total burn out right after my brain surgery. I needed time to recover from a major health crisis and couldn’t do it because of lack of financial support from my significant other. He just wasn’t there for me and I had to provide for us even though I wasn’t well.

I became despondent and depressed. Consequently we broke up and I moved 3000 miles to get a new life. In reality I didn’t want a whole new life just some “cover” while I was getting well.

The past year here in the wilderness has been very healthy for me yet I never really commited to this move. My things are still in storage in Texas. My heart is there with my children.

The biggest drawback to my moving back to Texas is I have made new friends here that truly are friends plus I am much healthier.

Yet it is time to make a decision and stop wandering in the wilderness. God/Universe can not provide more for accomplishing my goals until I make this decision,

In the past when things got tough I chose flight as my defense…maybe that is not the answer this time. Can I keep the best of both worlds and succeed with my goals?

My year sabbatical in the wilderness has been very enlightening for me. I am healthier and have been able to actually get to know my mother as an adult. We have never lived close to each other.

I have made some wonderful friends. I am professionally licensed the same as I was in Texas. Generally life has been very good here.

But as Spring is nearing I am thinking of my family in Texas. My oldest grand-daughter is playing soccer and the 2 babies are getting to pre-school age…not babies anymore. I am missing out on what is truly important for me…spending time with my own family.

Ideally, I could work here during the summer and Texas during the winter. Then life would be really good!