remember that it is all temporary

is in store for 2010. My time here in the wilderness has been about my losses and how much I don’t fit in here. That is 2 1/2 years (almost 3) of whining, moaning and feeling blue about things I had absolutely no control over. My actions were those of a loser not a leader.

Gratefully I have some wonderful people in my life that see me as a sunflower…bright, cheery and hardy instead of the shrinking violet…fragile and small that I have been acting like for a very long time.

2010 will be my year of an attitude of gratitude and consistent actions to achieve my life list. Why wait?

What better day to make that change than Thanksgiving?

I’m back here…wish I could call it home but when I dropped her off she had her husband and her pup greeting her with love and attention….I came home to a cold, dark house. Then I wonder why I hate it here?

If anyone ever tells me again I don’t live in reality I’ll tell them my life in Montana is so real it is in 3D – desolation,desperation and destitution…

I made alot of calls in Missoula with tons of follow up to do. We’ll see what happens! I can’t get too down being back…that would negate all of the upbeat things I did this week.

I ate more in 4 days than I do in a week or more at home.. I love greek so mostly I ate hummus , gyros, tabuli…then my friend likes steaks so we went to the Guy’s Lolo Creek Steak House and we had Italian twice…really miss the diversity of food here.

My friend passed her insurance test so we went to the mall on the way out of town. Dillards was having a drawing for a cool teflon microfiber ameribag- a healthy back bag tote….their slogan is “every bag has a silver lining”.I thought their slogan was really cute and upbeat!

Anyway we left without buying anything and stopped at the China Bowl for a quick bite before we headed out. While finishing our meal the girl from Dillards called me and told me I won the purse drawing.

My fortune cookie said money- good luck will come to you next month and I won the purse within 2 seconds of reading that! The purse carries money so I’m thinking the Universe/God is telling me good things are headed my way! Luckily I am whacky that way and believe in divine signs.

When we went back to Dillards my friend was feeling better so she shopped some…I picked up my purse and I was like a kid at Christmas.

It isn’t that cute but if it is good luck I will carry it every where! :)

from the wilderness comes to an end today. It’s back to the quietness of my life. Sadly,this adventure is ending far to quickly for me.

The one thing this little trip did do was reenforce the fact I am a city girl at heart.

That makes me laugh! I never would have imagined calling my hometown a city. I couldn’t wait to leave when I was a teenager and go see the world! :)

or would you rather spend your time and life doing things that make you and those you love happy and smiling?

A new friend of mine here in the wilderness reminds me of how I used to be with grace under pressure. Her business has taken a downturn like all of our businesses and yet she maintains a spirit of optimism that I strive to emulate.

She does nice things for her employees…like appreciation dinners and lunches. She is celebrating the holidays with friends and family.

She is not letting the day to day stress take it’s toll to the point of paralysis where I let it go.

Since I have a choice I am not spending anymore time with misery. :)

I really want to go to Texas for Thanksgiving and see my children.

Life is far too short to be lonely and away from home.

to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe
that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said life would be easy, they
just promised it would be worth it.

‘Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. And enjoy your life.’

I received this in my e-mail this morning and wanted to share it with you.”

I have a new affordable internet advertising venture for Montana businesses that will provide me immediate cash flow. I met with the publisher last weekend and see that this is an exciting project!

I have also decided to renew my real estate license and get on with what I do best…helping people get into their homes. I have been out of that game long enough!

Feeling much better now that I have a definite direction.

that is bouncing through the wilderness came to visit me last night.

Been sleeping most of the day and still feel really bad.

the Universe has opened up and a multitude of opportunity has fallen from the skies.

People are backing me in all 3 of my business ideas in ways I had no idea would happen. I even got a P/T work at home job that I can do on my own hours over the Internet.

Guess if I throw enough mud on the wall something will stick. :)

out of town for the first time in ages. Saw some areas of Montana I hadn’t seen in many,many years. Had a business meeting for a new venture. Did some clothes shopping at one of my favorite department stores that we do not have in the wilderness. Spent time with a wonderful friend who has been a huge blessing in my life.

I needed that break more than anyone could realize. :)