Live life with joie de vivre

and Promises and things that we believe in!

I have to say it now it’s been a good life all in all! :)

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming “WOO HOO what a ride!”

None of us get out alive!

WOO HOO! Why are we taking all of this so seriously??

fireworks celebration since my last celebration in Montana in the 90’s for the 4th of July. That time we were sitting in a park in Laurel, Montana and charred cardboard was falling on us…it was wonderful! My sons still remember that 4th of July!

Tonight I was sitting on my deck, alone and yet not lonely…it was beautiful! Fireworks filling the air all around me..yet no cardboard, the best yet!

Secretely, the 4th of July has always been my favorite holiday.

I believe in visualization…next year at this time this will be my wilderness home(instead of renting), my friends and family will come for a barbecue and the fireworks show! I may not live here full time in the future but today I know why I am in the wilderness…to connect with what is important in our lives. Things we forget living in the city…

I may not be rich but I am blessed!

to stop cocooning and become the beautiful butterfly I have been morphing into these past 2 years. I am really tired of being alone 95% of the time.

As an extrovert spending all of this time re-inventing myself has been extremely quiet. However, most of that is going to change.

Can’t get my goals accomplished sitting at home waiting for other like minded people to knock on my door. ;)

of my discoveries of Shalahah. To my surprise he called me back. Poor guy lived with my eccentricities for a very long time. Maybe I should just leave him alone but I thought he’d get a kick out of this. :)

telling people I am a child of Shalahah! Most don’t even know what I am talking about and those who do go “yeah so what? We always knew you were.”

Life is full of adventures! This explains mine and the best is yet to come!!! :)

just like Meredith Brooks

I hate the world today
You’re so good to me
I know but I can’t change
tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I’m an angel
underneath
innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything
all rolled into one

Chorus:
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your health, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean you’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
and I’m going to extremes
tomorrow I will change
and today won’t mean a thing

Chorus

Just when you think you’ve got me figured out
the season’s already changing
I think it’s cool you do what you do
and don’t try to save me

Chorus

I’m a bitch, I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
when you hurt, when you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numbed, I’m revived
can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

Through an absurd chain of events my current relationship ended this weekend. You have to keep a sense of humor here in the wilderness.

It all started when I lost my cell phone. I was pulling out of my driveway looking for my cell phone and accidentally bumped into our mailboxes (mine and neighbors)& knocked them over. They were on a tiny little 2×4 post. I thought okay I will fix it in the morning.

I was on my way to a friend’s house for dinner so I didn’t really think anything more about the mailboxes. I still couldn’t find my phone. We had a girl’s night watching movies so we ended up having a slumber party which was really fun!

When I got home the next morning there on my dining table was my cell phone and a note from my former boyfriend(as of yesterday) saying the police brought it by his work at the local watering hole and they wanted to talk to me about the mailbox.

I was astonished! Why would the police have my phone? Why would they take it to him at the bar? It was all so baffling. Then my young neighbor came out on the deck and explained he called the cops about the mailboxes because I wasn’t home to ask. They found my phone in my driveway where I must have dropped it and the policeman decided to take the phone to my ex-boyfriend. Which my friend that I spent the night with and I found to be hysterical considering we are from the city! It all seemed so Mayberry and strange.

Well of course when my ex got off at 2 and brought the phone by I wasn’t home. He left a curt note about the police without any mention of anything else.

I waited til after 1 to call him because he sleeps late and he was cool so I asked him what was up? I told him I thought the police bringing my phone to him was hysterical. He didn’t ask any questions then said he was upset because I hadn’t called him to tell him what I was doing that night. I asked him where he thought I was and he said my friends…so for some reason his lack of sense of humor and not asking me what actually happened angered me. There was an air of distrust in his voice.

This has been building up. He knows I have a hard time with someone trying to control me or who is distrustful and jealous. We have had that discussion more than once…but he was accusatory and mad like a child that I need to tell him everything I’m doing.
I had a father. I haven’t had to report in to anyone for a very long time. We don’t live together so really when we are not together I have a life….I totally blew up. Gave him back his keys and took mine.

We haven’t talked in 24 hours but frankly I’m not that upset. Went walking this morning…planning a cook-out for later with friends. I’m sure it may hit me soon that we are over but for now I still find the whole thing funny! :)

By: Brian Tracy

Become An Irresistible Person
Webster’s Ninth New Collegiate Dictionary defines charisma as “a personal magic of leadership arousing special popular loyalty or enthusiasm for a public figure.”

Develop Personal Magnetism
Charisma is also that special quality of magnetism that each person has and that each person uses to a certain degree. You have a special charisma to the people who look up to you, who respect and admire you, the members of your family and your friends and coworkers. Whenever and wherever a person feels a positive emotion toward another, he imbues that person with charisma, or attractiveness.

Project Yourself Positively
In trying to explain charisma, some people speak of an “aura.” This aura is a light that is invisible to most people, but not to everyone, and that radiates out from a person and affects the people around that person in a positive or negative way. The halo around the heads of saints and mystics in many religious paintings was the artist’s attempt to depict the light that people reported seeing around the heads of these men and women when they were speaking or praying, or in an intense emotional state.
Control the Impression You Make
You also have an aura around you that most people cannot see but that is there, nevertheless. This aura affects the way people react and respond to you, either positively or negatively. There is a lot that you can do, and a lot of good reasons for you to do it, to control this aura and make it work in your best interests.

Sell Your Way to the Top
If you’re in sales, this aura, reflecting your level of charisma, can have a major impact on the way your prospects and customers treat you and deal with you. Top salespeople seem to be far more successful than the average salespeople in getting along with their customers. They’re always more welcome, more positively received and more trusted than the others. They sell more, and they sell more easily. They make a better living, and they build better lives. Salespeople with charisma get far more pleasure out of their work and suffer far less from stress and rejection. The charismatic salesperson is almost invariably a top performer in his field and enjoys all the rewards that go with superior sales.

Influence People Around You
If you’re in business, developing greater charisma can help you tremendously in working with your staff, your suppliers, your bankers, your customers and everyone else upon whom you depend for your success. People seem naturally drawn to those who possess charisma.

They want to help them and support them. When you have charisma, people will open doors for you and bring you opportunities that otherwise would not have been available to you.

Enhance Your Personal Relationships
In your personal relationships, the quality of charisma can make your life more joyous, happier. People will naturally want to be around you. Members of your family and your friends will be far happier in your company, and you will have a greater influence on them, causing them to feel better about themselves and to do better at the important things in their lives.

Action Exercises
First, identify the people with whom you seem to have a lot of charisma – the people who know you, like you, respect you the most. How could you increase your charisma with these people?

Second, identify the people who have charisma to you, the people you most like and respect and admire. What is there about them that you could copy or emulate? If you think charisma, you’ll have more of it.

called to apologize for her outburst this week. I totally understand the helplessness of how we feel when someone takes their life but to actually say you are going to do that too is a very selfish statement.

I know this is harder on her. They were together everyday. I have sympathy for her and yet I have to draw the line on how much she can spiral down with me.

I’m praying she is just grieving out loud. May God please protect her and show her the beauty in living soon.