find balance in my life

ok, this is a totally irrational sense of guilt, but i feel horrible for our garbage men. lol. I try to be as kind to them as possible, limiting the weight of the bags, keeping kitty litter clearly seperate becuase i read somewhere once where bags of kitty litter blow up when squished and can blow all around, and who wants kitty litter in the face. As i have been emptying the storage unit, i’ve had tons of randomness to throw away so today we had three bags of trash (odd week), a broken window from an old camper that was in our garage for ever, a broken picture frame, old discolored blinds, two bags of kitty litter, a box of unrecyclable paper (envelopes with plastic windows), and a giant pool blow up toy with LOTS of holes. i just feel so bad for putting all of that out there. BUT, we do pay taxes and voted for unlimited trash pick up everyday. where’s the feeling of balance?

this used to say find balance between things i need to do and things i want to do. but those things are not clearly separated in my life. i am more torn between things i feel i should be doing and the things i am required to do by societal pressures. (ei: have a normal life, live in a house and not my car, follow all the rules because that’s what we’ve been told) i need that balance.