be honest

disliked again for my failure to lie for another person.

i’m calling this done.

the fact is, is that sometimes honesty can really get you bit in the a**. but in the long run, i may have forgotten why “she” doesn’t like me, but i’ll remember that i was honest. which also reminds me of that saying, “calling the kettle black.”. . . well if you don’t want o be called a black kettle, i suggest you NOT BE a black kettle.

i will not lie and call off sick. sick and tired of a stupid job doesn’t count. i will go, i will finish my week, and i will leave them. with 4 days notice. this makes me a mediocre person, not good, not bad. time to take a shower so i can go get dirty. (and not even good, planting stuff dirty, dirty yucky money, dusty boxes dirty!!)

i fibbed today to the job that is similar to Chinese water torture. i can’t possibly offend them with the truth, and i only bended the reality a little to avoid unnecessary heart feelings. please forgive me. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. . . . i hate feeling guilty.