lose weight

I lost 1 lb this week which is expected as i lost 3 lbs last week so wasn’t expecting the sme result twice in a row. I was just as good this week so i know i haven’t done anything wrong and am always happy to be moving down on the scles. I’m even happy staying the same for a bit to long if it means i’m at least bot gaining.

So down to 147 lbs now so am getting very excited :) can’t wait to get down to my minny goal of 143lbs as it actualy in site now! I’ll be there in 2-3 weeks no problem.

And down to 126 lbs in 2-3 months if i work hard!

joining the gym in a few weeks, just waiting untill i have the mony. Can’t wait!

A rough summery of my weight loss history.

2010 was big year for me (though it all happened in it’s last few months), I finaly worked out how to lose weight with out crash diating, i worked out it was all about carrying on when things weren’t happening fast enough, tht it was better losing weight slowely than not at all and gaining instead.

2011 was a rubbish weight loss year as i had countles started and failed atempts at diating and only managed to lose around another 4lbs in the whole year that went up and down the same 4 numbers weekly. It was an important year in some ways though as although i didn’t lose mutch extra weight i didn’t gain any back from 2010’s sucsfull run.

Before i lost weight in 2010 i was 170lbs

2012 is going to be the year i finish what i started and lose the rest of my excess weight. It is going to be good year! Although i am very proud i have kept weight of for more than a month ( no joke always gained the stone ish i lost crash diating back rediculously quickly) i don’t want nother repeat of last year, i want a combination of both… to finish what i strted before i’m halthway through the year and start the life time of keeping it of in the second half!

I have a very good feeling bout this year and so far i’ve been strong as a rock (kinda) and had some small suceses that add confidence to the proccess.

1) My family ordered rely fattening takaway becuse we had nothing in for dinner but i didn’t order anything and had wholemeal toast that evening!

2) I was feeling low and was rely in the mood to binge but not only did i not i talked my self out of thinking i wanted to and then i put down the UNopened chocolate and felt 100% fine about it in the space of bout 5 seconds it took me to work it out.

3) is that untill 2) i hadn’t wanted to binge at all this year!!

Highest Weight-170 lbs :(

Lowest Weight -143 lbs (age 14)

Current weight-148 lbs

Goal Weight -126 lbs

I will be there before the end of June!

Wow over the past week i have been slacking of spectacurly. I had 3 weeks of doing great then this week…. so bad.Started feeing very low and that may have had alot to do wth it. Good news is i know i’ve been doing bad so it seems to have helped with my weighing scales problem haha.

This week i will without a dowt be back on track and hopwfully i will also stay away from the scales. Infact that is my goal… I will weigh in in the morning… asses the damege… then stay of them untill next friday.

I’m not going to let one bad week mess up how good i’ve been doing and i will hopefully get down to 144 lbs by christmas!

I was feeling realy down today. Well i was feeing great, then i went and spent time with my skinny (skinn skinny) friend and i was still feeling okish actualy but then all of a sudden i had a massive crash. I felt MASSIVE and like i’m never gonna lose as much weight as i want to ever and the world is ending! It’s so stupid and i know it is but i just get those moods sometimes (often)

I also have a major unhealthy relationship with my scales… I can’t stay of them at all. I feel like if i don’t weigh my self at the begining of everyday that i will mess up and forget i’m suposed to be losing weight, or to prove to myself i have lost weight and it hasnt all been a trick and it is back on this morning even though its been this weight for days-weeks.

Thats not the worst, i weigh myself everytime i got to the bathroom (at home of course) and even worse still i stripp everytime incase my cloths make the difference in me gaining a lb or not.

I need to stop this but at the same time I realy need to know what i weigh all the time. I also know the number isnt what matters, its what you see in the mirror but i don’t see a loss in the mirror untill i see it on the scales firts. I see gain without weighing in, i just know,but i also see a “gain” when my weight has stayed the same for to long.

I’ll probebly be over my big low by morning but right now i just want all the weight to dropp of this second. But thats impossible and i know the ony way i’m gonna do this is hard work an motivation and not expecting results over night and mostly by detaching my self from the scales somehow!

Tomorow is weight daythough ironicaly so i want be able to start tomorow. Even though i already know wht i’l weight if it is the same as the past 3 days. 148 in the morning and 150 in the evening.

I was excite yesterday to be 149 but…

This morning

147

I’m not sure how this happened but after the billionthtim time i weighed myself this morning thats what the scales insisted on showing me.

I think i’ll weigh in the morning to see if this was a fleuc or something. I don’t see how it could be water weight though, i’ve been on track for nearly 3 weeks now and over the past week i havn’t been perfect. I’ve been motvated and not binged, i’ve not eaten large porshons and i’ve exercised more than usual but what i eat isn’t supper healthy, It’s normal foods just without the over doing it and with the odd treat.

I don’t understand how i lost that much in such a small space of time without living of salads.

I souldnt complain though. It is just showing me more that there is still peanty of weight loss left in me and i son’t have to neer starve myself to ose the rest of the weight i want.

I may be well out of the 140’s by new year at this rate.

Crazy…..........

149 lbs

Yay

Under 150 (....Again)

That is all :)

It has been a year and a month sine i started loosing weight. I However lost most of the weight in the first 2-3 months so throughout the rest of the time i was maintaning (which is great as i have never keps weight of for more than a month or so)or ive been gaining a bit then loosing it again. Somwere along the way i started feeling realy realy fat again, even though i had been a stone or more away from were i was last year i just felt huge because i couldn’t seem to the rest. I think becuse i felt better i didnt have the same desperation to motavate me.

But like i said i started feeling realy fat again and it has kicked me into gear and i feel realy motavated now. I’m also starting to feel thin again which makes sence since i’m at my lowest weight since i was 14, So i need to find tha balence beetween feeling good about my self whils still feeling motavated anoth to get to my goal weight.

I feel i’m in that place now… I realy feel in a place were alot of weight is going to drop of within the next few months and i’m realy excited about seeing were i will be come new year. i thinki will be very close to the 10 stone mark!

So i’ve been weighing myself every day for the past 11 days. I told myself i would do it weekly but thats my will power for you haha :)
for 10 days (or 17 considering i lost 2 lbs by doing nothing and it took me a week of not gainng to take this good streek and run with it) have stayed at 152 everyday.

It made me start thinking that 16 lbs is the most my bodey ever wanted to loose and i’m never gonna be slim like i want to be. But i kept up the good eating as it makes me feel better anyway and part of me was hoping tht my wight would continue to go down without having to starve myself (which of course i’m not prepared to do) and i’m so glad i carried on an wil continue to do so.

My weight finly went down this morning and it proved to me that if i stick it out and wait out the weeks and months ahead whist sticking in this mind frame and eating around 1200-1500 calls a day It will come of and its only by letting thouse good days turn into good months that i can get to my ultimit goal weight and stop putting it off as i have been doing. I need to stay on this perminently (though my eating habbits have never gone back to constent unhealthyness like it was before i lose the initin 14 lbs last year)

I’m now 150 lbs (More like 149.5 as it was a tiny bit under 150)
In the next 200 days i will lose 24 lbs and gt down to my goal of 126. I just need to loose 1 lb every 8 days :)

No more putting of, i’ts now or never…..

I’m on Day 5 of this time around and have had no change to my weight. I have not been binging (infact i havent been for a while now which is an acomplishment i should have noticed before now)or eating junk food. I’ve not been snacking at all just eating 3 meals a day. One of which is always small.

I’m going to stick with it because i know from personel experience that things like this happen then one day you drop 2 lbs just like that. Also i started my period today so logicaly i know that will have something to do with my weight. I’m still holding out hope for a loss by friday. I’m gonna be as perfect as i can be untill i reach 126 bs!!!

So i havent been trying to loose weight at all for the past few months. So i went back up to 154lbs. I stayed there for a few weeks than randomly last week i weighed 152. I had still been eating too much junk food so i don’t understand why :s But throughout the week i continued to eat junk food and i have magicaly maintained at 152!

I realy don’t understand why but i’m not going to knock it and because good things never last i have decided to start working my bum of to achieve this goal from now on!

Today i ate less than 1200 calls and i did bout 20 minits exercise. Not much i know but i’m going to start jogging and KEEP it up this time. I have a chart and everything to log my weight loss :) and i’m only going to weigh in on fridays.

So next friday i would idealy like to be 149. Seems possible since it’s the first week.