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I had a workshop today for my new job, but it was held at a different location than where I work daily. The location was down by my old job so I met the old gang for lunch. It was soooo nice seeing them and catching up a bit. I miss them all a lot, but I know I made the right decision. I’m so much happier at the new job. It’s sooo much less stressful.

They just mentioned a few new things that have happened since I left and wow…again I am so glad I made the decision to leave, even the difficulty I had and doubt that came and went the past month I was there; it was all worth it I love my new job and love the extra time I have and other benefits. Makes life in general less stressful! :-)

I also had the opportunity to run by and get a chai bubble that I love so much. I have not had one since I left there about a month and a half ago. It was sooooo yummmy.

Happy Friday to me.

I started watching this great old movie last night (A Stolen Life) starring Bette Davis, filmed in 1946. The acting was amazing, the filming was actually amazing. She plays herself and a twin sister, and for 1946 I was impressed with the split screen filming.

There were a few quotes I really liked. One was simple and not original, but still it fit in the movie well “I don’t mind being alone, I just don’t like loneliness.” Another was something like “you have found your place in life, don’t ever lose that.”

I had to leave for class about 30 minutes before the ending. So I missed the end! I have to find this movie and watch it all. I was so caught up in it! I swear those old movies are like a mini vacation (to me at least).

Maybe it was the brisk morning, maybe it’s the chilly afternoon. Maybe it’s the numerous active dreams I’ve been having…I just feel a bit lonely, like I need to share some stories with someone or something like that, but can’t.

Maybe I need to email or call some old friends or mail a card or something. It’s like I have some things to do, but have misplaced the to do list.

Maybe it’s just the weather and I’m wanting to be all cozy, bake some bread, and catch up with family and friends.

I might get out with my camera this weekend and take advantage of the fall colors while they last! Maybe that will fill the void a bit! Maybe that’s it…maybe I just need some me time. :-)

Funny how sometimes you think you have it all figured out (speaking for myself that is)...it’s all settled…everything is flowing in the right direction then you’re reminded each day is an opportunity for growth and change (by good and bad means)...maybe life is still flowing, but it changes directions, obstacles are put in place to keep you alert…

I’m amazed that I can still be caught off guard. BUT I think knowing myself better (better now compared to 5 or so years ago) helps me steady myself and focus and decide what really is about me and what I can change (or at least work on) and what I have no control over at all and just need to allow it to be. So I guess with each surprise, each moment that catches me off guard is a learning process and allows me to be better prepared in the future…because there will always be moments that shock me and I guess that is a good thing…in a way.

Ramble ramble ramble.

Well my sister and I have been trying to find costumes to where to the Renaissance festival this year, this will be the 10th year in a row that we have gone together. I’m a nerd I know. It’s a nice tradition for us though.

We have not had much luck in finding the exact costume we want. I don’t want a plain wench or too fancy…I already feel dorky, but kinda excited about it at the same time. lol

This photo is more of what I have in mind, but maybe this is too ‘princess’ like…I saw a black and red one like this one…I don’t know! I’m sure we will figure something out!

Well with all the craziness at work and having to work on my birthday I have not really thought about celebrating! It’s on a Tuesday so I guess I am forced to celebrate this weekend AND next. :-)

I have a few ideas and family and friends have mentioned a few things too…we’ll figure out something! :-)

You know sometimes I complain about things that happen at work and sometimes I listen and nod in agreement to co workers who say things like “I don’t get paid to think” or “That is not my job” even though I don’t totally agre.

But today as I sat at my desk eating my granola and milk with a fork no less, because I could not find a spoon I realized I am pretty lucky. About 5 co workers walked by while milk drip between the fork tongs and not one said a word…or even took a second glance. How cool is that? And later we are having a going away party for a great co worker and instead of pizza or something like that we are making shakes and smoothies…yep pretty lucky.

SO even when things are unorganized or someone is complaining that they are not paid to think I’m going to remember that I* am lucky and *I love my job. Maybe I sort of make my own rules to a point… I don’t know, but I like it whatever it is.

My boss (not officially, but the man I actually do work for) just informed me I should be going to China next year for a big event. He is 90% sure. Wow…I’m speechless. He wants me to go to make sure everything is organzied for the group etc. and as a perk for all the other things I do…I’m always planning so I should get to benefit from it.

wow…I have to talk to him more about this. China?! Wow

It’s perfect outside! I had to go out to lunch. I have been bringing my lunch most days for months now, but today was a ‘going out’ day.

I went to get a bubble tea and a banana (small lunch) and the girl that works most of the time has started giving me a large and only charging for a small. She always says “oh I made too much, don’t want to waste it” then puts it in a large cup. :-) Nice huh? I have not been going there much, maybe two or three times a month and they are always so nice and ask me how I’ve been, they know my name; it’s a comfy cool feeling.

What a great day…feeling good, beautiful weather…getting ready for TN in one week! My sister is feeling better…work is busy but in a good way….life is good. :-)

“Sometimes we think that focus comes out of force or trying harder and that a gritty intensity is what it takes to make something happen. This is not true. Instead, focus comes from a calm, inner directed alertness, and from bringing awareness and presence into what we are experiencing … and what is unfolding before us, right here, right Now. There is an alive, yet gentle aspect to focus, and out of this aliveness comes a formidable power through which we can create literally anything wonderful that we desire in our lives.” – Unknown