Think before I speak or type.

Well, I have been putting my foot in my mouth and bad mouthing. I am not dealing with my break up, because I hit a point and did not want it.

I was bad mouthing a bad influence.

Now yesterday I sent flowers, and a few gifts. So, I am guessing I will be pushing my ex away even more.

The more you give the more you get taken advantage of.

My birthday was last sunday also and I got nothing but a “happy birthday” which I pushed for. No b-day card, no nothing. I have gotten nothing but heart ache.

This morning, I almost went off, but I decided to walk away and not explode with my emotions to a response. I just shut up and am trying to forget.